the other thing is i am also scared i can't trust my judgement anymore. i always thought i know the best about me, about other people, about life and so on.and most of the time i was right. Friends always said i am the smart one.
but last months have been awful. i am wrong, i misunderstand a lot. and now when i am writing i see that i was really wrong, but i also know next time i will do the same (it's difficult to explain) it is like part of a time a another me has the power of seeing and she sees all bad. i have already written about the feeling that there are two MEs inside my body. but before last couple of months Mes couldn't agree only about things i saw in the mirror. and with that i could live. but now it's bad. i had a lot of fights with friends because i misunderstand them, blamed them for what i thought they think and wanted to do to me. and after a while i saw my mistake..i really did..but i was too ashamed about it to speak with them.
Something happier. I love surrealism. Salvador Dali is my favorite artist. This tattoo kind of remind me of his works. I still think about the idea of having a tattoo. but i can't decide what exactly do i want(i have been thinking over a year now or even more): dream-catcher or a dog. I could have both. Will see. Till that time i still need to lose lot of fat.
