it's always the same sh*t

well..i can't believe it, but i have got a strain..first time in my 7 years long running history..and the thing is i used to run every day more then 10km..and really every day. and now when i'm more or less thinking about my body..guess what.. i got a strain..just FCUK yourself and die! i can't even walk normally..i was looking like a old grandma today limping & having that painful facial expression. oh well, whining & crying won't help there i guess. so i changed my work out plan: yoga & arm exercises were/still are on the plan. but i can't wait to run again..running is the only way i can get along with stress & angriness. oh, i just help it will heal very fast. i have no idea how long can it take(first strain huh), but from reading on Internet it might take ages(jhaskjdasl). I still be doing master cleanse thing though..i'm bit scared, cause i won't be able to drink coffee at all, and since i can remember, i have always had at least one coffee per day (not to speak about days when i have up to 5:D) anyways the plan is :
a) heal the strain
b)start master cleanse
c)study more & every day
d)fitness abo
e) winter boots
f) vacation
e)get another tattoo (in best case 2, but it depends of how much of spare money will i have:(
g) decide what to do after 4 month

and now i just need to inhale & exhale & cross the fingers

so now it's time to appreciate the fast work of L's & make appointment with a good book.if you know what i mean.
xMx

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i completely have been forgotten that i had this blog..because on daily basis i was only checking my two favorite blogs this one and this one. 
and for all kind thoughts and ramblings i used small pieces of paper which were burnt afterwards :D because i honestly didn't want to rethink my thoughts and decisions. for tracking of workouts i started to use dailymile.com..it's really simple that way...and what's about kcal intake? well.it's not good...but i have cut out everything bad or what i call bad. what's left? veggies(all kinds and arts), chicken, dairy, latte machiatto(lots of it) and couscous, rice, pasta, bread. but u see no chocolate and "not clean" stuff. next step would be to get rid of the "couscous, rice, pasta, bread" part.
anyways today i logged into my old email account and saw a new comment:D and that's how i remembered my blog :D well i'm pretty sure i won't forget it to quickly now..(because of lots of free time and 0 friends(yet) in 1000 km radius...but i like it ..still i'm pretty sure after some month i will start to miss other people then only my ..but for now it's me, nature, workouts, running, lots of books and the biggest loser 12 seasons :D and well after last year, in which i felt like a shit all the time...always in the fight with family, stressed out in work and in studies and really unhappy because of not seeing what to do and achieve next...just really unhappy and sad. but now i feel better..i'm really happy(maybe u aren't allowed to say it loud?)i still haven't figure out what to do with my life,future and family..but i have still 11 month left. and i had never had time for myself..i always was really competitive in school, stressed out at home and that all ended up where it ended up..so i don't regret to drop my old life and try something new. and time will show.

M.

 P.s. ultimate inspiration : www.bodyrock.tv/