it's better already

well, i'm feeling better right now. That's my food intake for today : broccoli, egg and cucumber. And 3x caffe latte..i could still do better.

5 km run
60 min cardio (intensity)
60 min mat work
40 min bike

i'm too tired and off to bed..thank god tomorrow i'm free..so..i'll do better then today.


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502

today's intake: 502 kcal
biking 15 km, running 30 min and mat workout 60 min.

i'm back on track..hopefully certainly for a longer time.. tomorrow is monday again, that means i have a 8 h long workday..i already made a soup(~241 kcal)  from carrots, beans and little touch of couscous for lunch. because knowing me i can't eat outside...i'll freak out and end up screwing everything up.no no no.not this time. i'm tired (tired probably isn't the right word..i'm devastated) of my weight jumping up and down, up and down..i'm at that point where i can restrict again..and not screw it up..like those stupid 2 years in the middle wouldn't have been..just mirror thinks otherwise. well we see!!

i still can't get enough from colors of autumn...nature is so beautiful...it's the people and their unnatural stuff, what changes beautiful into ugly. i mean..eating natural food chance to become a big fat girl is a lot smaller then eating Mcdonald's stuff. Anyways i'm enjoying autumn...

Japan is also my dream destination, just maybe a little bit later.

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500

today i stayed under 500 kcal, had 30 min long run, 1 h long workout and i think i found new strength in me. just pity i always find strength in sad things..
and thank god it's autumn again( read lots of clothes to hide in)
and the nature has so many colors, it's just beautiful...
but honestly i don't get when did the autumn came. like really?
..somewhere between work, working out, counting intake and fighting
 with all and everyone around me..hmm..nice.

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