it's better already

well, i'm feeling better right now. That's my food intake for today : broccoli, egg and cucumber. And 3x caffe latte..i could still do better.

5 km run
60 min cardio (intensity)
60 min mat work
40 min bike

i'm too tired and off to bed..thank god tomorrow i'm free..so..i'll do better then today.


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over 600..damn

intake: 625
steamed cauliflower, carrots, egg white and potatoes + coffee latte(3x)+ apple
6 km running, 40 min bike, "mat work" workout

too tired to write more, i still need to finish frosting for cupcakes.my grandma has a birthday tomorrow. and good news are.i haven't tasted anyone..and actually thought i could eat one makes me wanna puke..so..i can 99% assure you..no BINGING today.

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almost 600

hmm..sleepless and with lots of bathroom visits are all i can say about last night and half of the next morning as well. luckily no work today, so i slept a lil bit through the day. Good thing after yesterday's depression is that it ended today...and i'm motivated again.

Intake:
588 kcal :steamed green beans, coffee latte (3x), half an apple, 1 banana

Jogging: 5,8 km in 24 minutes...i can do better then that
60 min- mat work workout

i can do better..i know i can. i could let one latte out..but when i remember past time when 6 cups of it per day was a absolute need, then this is not the worst case.

i have 3 packs of these at home, just for case i need a "little" boost ^^

each of piece have 75 kcal in it. that's the unhealthiest thing i like (read also consume) on daily bases.

it's October already and i figured out i need some guidelines for it, so i sat down and thought about it:

1. loose weight (at least 5 kg)

2. improve my jogging time and length

3. jog every evening at least 5K (1 day free at the week is acceptable but undesirable)

4. one worthy book and one worthy movie per week to watch and read( i'm not counting 

detectives which i love to death)

5. mat work everyday( no problems there) 


6. start a new activity - pilates or other class (or restart -swimming or yoga)


7. try not to loose it at work (read not o end up afterwards binging...AND IT"S not IMPORTANT HOW MUCH STRESS i have there)


8. cut my hair.




so, we'll see.

well, i'm not there yet, that's why i run normally late at the evening when it's dark. no one can see me and think i'm  fat, if i would get a comment about that it could spoil everything...so no..thank you.

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502

today's intake: 502 kcal
biking 15 km, running 30 min and mat workout 60 min.

i'm back on track..hopefully certainly for a longer time.. tomorrow is monday again, that means i have a 8 h long workday..i already made a soup(~241 kcal)  from carrots, beans and little touch of couscous for lunch. because knowing me i can't eat outside...i'll freak out and end up screwing everything up.no no no.not this time. i'm tired (tired probably isn't the right word..i'm devastated) of my weight jumping up and down, up and down..i'm at that point where i can restrict again..and not screw it up..like those stupid 2 years in the middle wouldn't have been..just mirror thinks otherwise. well we see!!

i still can't get enough from colors of autumn...nature is so beautiful...it's the people and their unnatural stuff, what changes beautiful into ugly. i mean..eating natural food chance to become a big fat girl is a lot smaller then eating Mcdonald's stuff. Anyways i'm enjoying autumn...

Japan is also my dream destination, just maybe a little bit later.

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