failure

still nothing,still trying, still failing and still unhappy...i'm so tired. when will it be better?

and fasting, again..

water fast for 7 days..starts now.  yesterday i drank way too much, said too many things which i never would say normally to others..and ate too much when i was already too much...BLAAAAAAAAAh,but good news that extra food didn't stay in me for a long time..haha.. anyways. i ran today, did work out and ate only one slice of bread with tomato and oh red bull energy drink( as every day). still no actually time for posting, but soon i'll hopefully have everything under control again.


M.

work..ufff

lately it's just work, work, work and work again. but i won't get to upset, because i know i won't have it..after 2 month and then i'll be able to sit and blog here for eternity ( not so funny..no). but for me working means getting stressed out and calm me with unnecessary food = getting fat and chubby ..urghkjldknslkdalkfdj...well  i've not gained( read i haven't lost either) but it's just because i'm doing exercises as planed *sigh*
 that just means i can't handle stress/ work and concentrate on my kcal intake at once...am i blonde or what? or i just need to do better. ok. i'll take some sleeping pills, because i had to many coffees today and tomorrow is a early morning again...
P.S i'll need to write down my ramblings more often..it helps..so i have heard :D

M.