worst day in this year!

worst day because of that big amount of food..uhh..and i know the reason why..i slept 2 hours in the morning and 2 hours later in the afternoon..the whole night through i was working on my paper..still there are left 2 pages..but well i have this night for sure too. and luckily i was able to stop the binging (after that all bread i had *sigh*). but as soon as i will finish that damn paper ill begin the fast. just 2 days though because next paper must be finished till tuesday and i can't write if i haven't had something in my stomach, just it would be amazing that this time no bread-binge (fingers crossed) and i was so happy i didn't had more that chocolate obsession now i have bread's.
i have problems at the uni not because of courses but because of that weird atmosphere we have there(looong story and im to tired to write it all down here) im trying to stay out of there but well it doesn't work very well.
ok but i have also something good to tell: ill going to my best friends graduation and i must buy something to wear because i have nothing to wear(as always^^) hopefully i won't get im-too-big-to-even-buy-something attack. and the second thing-ill meet old friend in the next week...excited^^



i thought ill be more positiv this year but its not true...im really worried if this year will be worst then last one.

i want lose that WEIGHT but don't want to get sick either. where is the way out..no idea^^

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