8 long months in paradies

it's amazing that i have spent already 8 long months here. i have been so busy all the time & well i can say also in some way happy. i did so many things new for me: got a tattoo, climbed a mountain(ok just 2000m, but still for me it's a lot), did a one week trip around Italy (mostly couchsurfing), so i met also a lot of amazing free-spirited people, did a 2 week trip in Europa (Germany, Austria & Poland). I went also home & faced my family and their judgment about my choices( those who already made and also the future ones). But there were also good times like seeing my best friends again( i missed & still am missing them like crazy) & my sweet little dogs. sounds happy right? well i was, but somehow with the summer went also the happiness away, cause weather here is already quite autumn-like, and there's snow already in mountains. but i think it's not only that. now that there are only 5 another months left, i'm getting scared about the future. what to do?, where to go?, where to get enough money? which city? which country? and so on and on. i'm bad with decisions, always have been. i want them all, but it's impossible(no, really????!!:D)
anyways, that's another pattern, when things aren't going well i come back to this blog...no idea for good or not..
xMx

 so that's me..now