and the whining starts again...

i love this song, maybe that's why today was a bit better..but seriously i mean..the leg still isn't good, but somehow i didn't had to much time to think about it..cause of the early shift..and i still got one cup of coffee, but it's half so bad, cause it's only first day of easy-in, but till friday i need to find strength to say no to the coffee, otherwise all that detox. will be a waste of time ..i mean i will loose some weight anyways, but if i'm doing something then i want to do my best. it's always been like that.."black" vs. "white" & no colors in between. tomorrow it's only fruits and veggies. i don't know why can i be that person i was some years ago. with aim and be able to restrict and go for a 10km run at 3am. and just live from cappuccinos & study the whole night through. i don't have left so much will power, it's not working(all those thispirations & promises ) i think i can't full myself so easily, cause i know i will give up eventually.
ok. i won't give up..just these last 5 days are so depressing, and i can't get away from these thoughts ( no running remember :( )
tomorrow everything will look better..

xMx

 

my room looked almost the same  :D

 

 

day 1

first day..back on track..it's time to take over my own life. no more turning to food for comfort and no more crying over my own damn body... why couldn't i do the same as so many people before me..i'll buy new food diary and start all over again.i'm so exciting...a lil bit scary..anyways..my starting weight is 138 lbs..and i'm 5'7 tall. so..at least 30 lbs to go..and better fast!!!!
PLAN:
1000 kcal per day
cardio- 30 min
mat method- 1 hour
yoga (3 times a week)

I'm pretty sure that i won't be able to stick with 1000 kcal..because of job, but the goal is never go over 1500 kcal.

something to be inspired from:

go me..i'm off to work..and hopefully everything will work out just amazing...fingers crossed!


M.