feeling like a shit

i have no idea what to do, the injury is getting worse and it will be 4 weeks at sunday. medicine doesn't work at all or very minimal. i'm just whole time tired & sad. i have eaten why too much, i basically can't work out..and i 'm also afraid if i'll try i would make it even worse, i hate the fact i can't have any privacy. cause i'm crying & depressed all the time & everyone with whom i live with has noticed it. i don't wanna be that cry baby..but  i am.

 

sorry, i'm very negative..but really i'm tired of pains & not knowing what it is & when will it end up. cause it isn't a strain in muscle (that was the first assumption) and the doctor doesn't know what it is. i need to make a bunch of x ray & analysis and i don't know if i can even afford it. like really everything is always about that damn money.

p.s i hope all of you out there are doing better then me at the moment. and thank you.

xMx

sunday...i'm freeee

this week has been so crazy & stressful & i have been crying like crazy and since i'm here, i haven't cried almost at all..ok at least not so much. and all of this is because i could go for run (who am i kidding here), i couldn't walk without screaming. i got a bunch of injection IN THE ASS ( a new experience as well :D). today is the first day i can walk normally. and all this started just because of a little strain, which wasn't enough for not going to the work and being all day up on feet, so the nerve in the hip joint went crazy. But well i'm glad it's over (i cross my fingers). i can't run for a week (min :() it makes me sooo angry. anyways, with all job/injury & i'm big drama queen shit i postponed the master cleanse, but i'll start tomorrow: first 4 days are easy in and 5-15. day is the master cleanse & then 4 days are easy out. it's also good so, cause at the beginning of october i'm going to milan & i can't possible imagine to be there and not to drink coffee. But milan is also a good extra motivation.

some pictures of what i have been eating now:

writing this post i got really excited about starting the Master cleanse, cause if i can't run..it's the ultimate option right now: to focus & to not get depressed.

i'm enjoying a lots of coffee today, cause next 19/20 days  just herbal tea..

xMx